Due to timetabling errors I’ve not had to teach any classes today. You might think that this sounds good but now I’m just anxious and worried that tomorrow will be very much the opposite and I’ll have rooms overflowing with students. There’s supposed to be a real emphasis on English and Maths from the government and yet over the summer our department was cut in half - ostensibly due to funding issues. My second year of teaching has only just gotten underway and I’m being very well set up for a career of bewilderment and disappointment. On the other hand, the students here are much more positive and good-humoured, which should make things enjoyable and rewarding for all of us. Plus, I don’t have classes on Fridays so I can go to the pub for lunch (they do great Thai food!)
I’ve been back at work for a little while now but formal teaching only resumes on Monday. I feel like I’ve been on a very long meandering walk and I’ve forgotten what it is that I do, let alone how to do it. For the past two years I’ve wondered how I can possibly teach anyone when my self-assurance is all over the place, but I suppose I must be doing something right as I’ve not been cut loose. I’ve had to move campus, meaning that I relocated to a new flat and a new workplace at very much the same time - about a month ago. I started typing other things but I don’t really know what I want to say. Perhaps the best thing is to be concise: I feel anxious, lonely, vaguely hopeful for better things. My throat is sore. I’m usually tired but I can’t ever sleep for very long. Still very fat, but still find nice shirts to wear. Same old shit.
who here has been on a date and received homemade strawberry jam?
the answer is me
this happened to me
GOOD GOD there are red pandas at this college I have to get this job
I found a vacancy at an agricultural college that sounds fun but it’s sooooooo far away (*(00)*)
On Your Mark from Tony T on Vimeo.
“On Your Mark,” is a music video created by Studio Ghibli in 1994 for Japanese pop rock duo, CHAGE and ASKA. Hayao Miyazaki conceived, wrote, and directed this short experimental film after getting writer’s block during the making of Princess Mononoke.
The music video is non-linear, providing multiple reiterations and alternate scenes to depict the events. Miyazaki purposely misinterpreted the lyrics to present his vision of a world where the surface becomes inhospitable and humans live in an underground city, and also intentionally made it cryptic to evoke creative interpretations among viewers.